Friday, 11 August 2017

Recovery

No matter how many times I've heard it/seen it, it's taken until today for it to fully sink in.
Recovery is a journey.
It takes time.
It's not straight forward.

Much like a car journey, there are stops along the way.
Gotta fill up the tank. Grab snacks. Check the map repeatedly. Turn around because you took the wrong exit. Disagree with the route you chose to take and then change it again and again. Look around at the scenery. Notice what everyone around you is doing. Stop and ask for directions...
At times, during those stops I've kicked the car, grabbed a sleeping bag and pitched a tent at the side of the road.
In the past I have decided that I don't need the stupid car anyway and am better off living in the dirt.
So far, throughout 2017, I have been driving pretty consistently at a tentative 8mph.
There haven't been many stops this year, but when they've happened, I stock up, turn around or whatever it is that I need to do to carry on the journey.
A handful of times I have held my sleeping bag in my hand, started to walk away but have, so far, always gotten back in the car and continued driving.

I feel that I will always be in recovery.
It is something that I am going to have to work at everyday.
There are always going to be stops along the way. They show me what I need.
I am alerted to when I need to rest, when I haven't been checking in with myself, when I may need to try a different approach with something and I am learning that asking for some help is sometimes what I need.
Stops are a reminder that I am still moving. A reminder that I'm not in that little tent anymore.
I am learning so much about myself in this little car of mine. Recovering each and every day ♡😊
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Tuesday, 8 August 2017

Current Favourites

Now. I'm not one for doing monthly favourites. Mainly due to the fact that I just can't seem to get organized enough. Or don't wear makeup as often as the previous month. Or I end up using the same products every time I do do my makeup... which I think would be really boring for people 😄
So I thought that it would be a good idea to share with you my current favourites from the last 6 months or so. That way there'll be a nice assortment :D
Let's get started with the face products.
First up we have the Ultra Contour Palette from Makeup Revolution.
Good grief I love this thing! I've had it for a while now and it is my go to for contour.
I use the second shade on the bottom row... as if you couldn't tell xD
It blends easily and I find that I can build it up for days that I want to look a little more chiseled ;D
The palette is amazing, providing a nice variety of shades with the highlighters and the contour powders.
Massive thumbs up from me... and I'll have to buy another one purely for my favourite contour shade :/
- worth it :D
Speaking of highlighters, here we have the Sleek Solstice Highlighting Palette.
I absolutely adore this thing.
In particular I use the shade Subsolar which is the bottom left.
Recently I have been shying away from gold toned highlighters but this one is too amazing not to use.
I seriously pack this stuff on
- even when I'm just going to get the food shop 🙈
it is absolutely  s t u n n i n g ♡
Next up are two powder blushes that I have been toing and froing between...
I have had the Illamasqua Naked Rose blush in my collection for a really long time and it kinda feels like a safe one to use.
By that I mean I don't feel like I need to think 'will this work?', it just seems to always fit in with the rest of my makeup.
The last few years I have felt that I 'can't' wear pink toned blush because of the pink undertone in my skin but I've thrown that idea out of the window.
I wear what I like :)
This Bobbi Brown blush in Tawny is a little bit darker than Naked Rose but I find it just as easy to wear.
Again, this one has been in my collection for the longest time but is always one I go to.
So far this year I've been darting between these two and feel happy with the result every time.
They're both very pigmented and blend beautifully. I find that if I make sure to use a light hand, they give a natural effect and I couldn't ask for more :)
A brush I have fallen back in love with is the MAC 187.
This was my go to foundation brush a few years back
- *cough* 4 *cough* xD
and it has revived it's place as my go to this year so far.
I use it in circular motions and because it's duo fibre, there isn't a lot of pressure on my face when using it.
It has stood the test of time, an oldie but a goodie :)
I'm now going to share with you two eyeshadows that are go to's...
First up is Estee Lauder eyeshadow in Vanilla Pods. I use the shade on the right as a one eyeshadow look.
It's gorgeous ♡
I use a shader brush to apply it to the lid and then take a fluffy brush to blend some more into the crease and transition.
It creates a whole look and it's literally so quick and easy it's insane!
- i'm all for saving time but looking like a spent ages on my makeup xD
And then we have MAC's Sable.
Where do I even begin??
I have been using this exactly the same way as the previous eyeshadow but this really is my ride or die.
This was one of the first eyeshadows I bought from MAC and has been an all time favourite ever since.
I may even wear this on my wedding day 💘
- i'm getting married?!. no? oh okay! i can calm down now xD
Everyone who is a human being needs to own this.
Seriously.
- lol but seriously you need it ;D
Lastly, I have three lip products.
Now, I'm not a lip person... or so I thought.
Up until last winter I always left my lips out of the equation when I did my makeup.
Not sure why but that has changed!
- hooray!
Starting with the Loreal Paris Lip Paint Matte in Babe-In, this has become a regular on my lips.
I really like the finish, it's almost as though you have nothing on which works for me.
It's a nude colour that suits most makeup looks I do.
Has a doe-foot applicator so it's easy to apply without getting it everywhere... Like I usually do xD
Really impressed :)

Then we have two lip pencils from MAC.
A fuchsia shade called Embrace Me. Man will this knock your socks off!
It's bright, loud and beautiful.
With this one I just tend to go all out with my makeup, it provides me with an inner bravery I think xD
And we have Dervish.
This is one I use as a natural lip shade.
It's enough to show I have something on but not enough to worry about throughout the day.
A really easy and simple option to make some effort but not have to keep reapplying :)

I hope that you liked this post. I think it's nice to see what products people have been really loving :)
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Friday, 4 August 2017

It's Always Been You, Blog.

When I was getting ready this morning I came to quite a large realization.
I was pondering what content I wanted to work on, what posts I'd like to write and the goals I hope to achieve, when it hit me...
I don't want to make videos.
You may or may not know that I occasionally make YouTube videos. At one time I was becoming rather regular with my uploads and it was my blog that was on the neglected back-burner.
Well I realized this morning that I no longer enjoy making videos.
It feels like it isn't for me right now. It doesn't fit in with who I am in my life at this time.
I've decided to take a break. A break that has no time limit. If I flow back to it I flow back to it, but for now, you'll find me right here.

In my darkest days, I was blogging.
- it may not have been very public, but i was blogging nonetheless xD
Writing feels like an outlet for me. I find my thoughts much easier to handle when they're written out in bite sized chunks.
Blogging has always been there for me. A place to turn to when I don't know what's going on.
Somewhere that feels safe and comforting.
It kind of feels like I write open letters to myself that I can read back time and time again if I so choose, with the added bonus of hopefully helping someone along the way.
I write about my experiences with my mental health, life and now at times, my physical well being. All of which provide me with a fire in my belly like no other.
I also write about all the things that make me happy.
Whether it's talking about my favourite brushes, new palettes, music that touches my soul or makeup looks I've been loving.

Coming to this decision felt like the easiest thing in the world, which indicates to me that I'm making the right choice.
It also fills me with an unbelievable feeling of pride and achievement because I have listened to what I was feeling and have eliminated something that wasn't feeling quite right.
And the best part is that I did it because I wanted to help myself.
I cannot remember a time where I have done that. I usually run towards things that will bring me pain.
I am slowly but surely learning that, for me, self care isn't all about painting my nails, it's about hearing what I am thinking and feeling and choosing to look after myself.

By removing the pressures I put on myself to be able to blog and make videos, I am freeing up so much time and energy to fully focus on my blog.
I couldn't be happier :)

It truly feels like this is my little corner of the world where I can just be myself.
No pressure, no filtering, no added sugar, not watered down. Just me :)
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Tuesday, 1 August 2017

Yesterday

I had plans to have lunch with a friend of mine yesterday afternoon.
It was organized so that I could attend an appointment earlier in the day and then meet up with her a little while afterwards.
I was going to have just over an hour of free time between the two so I was thinking about what I wanted to do.
Walking around and getting hot and bothered was not something I was remotely interested in doing.
- beetroot, shiny face anyone? xD
So I had a think.
I headed to a WHSmith's and bought a small notepad and a pen, headed to a costa, got a cold drink and then just sat alone at a table for two.

Lately I have been really working hard regarding my mental health. I'm doing everything I can to better understand myself and 'get better'.
Throughout last year, I was having these 'epiphanies' which opened the door to so many different issues/questions/problems I was having, past and present.
I found that by talking aloud I was hearing it in a whole other way which provided me with a new perspective.
It wasn't that someone was telling me a different way of looking at it, I was doing it for myself.
Lately a similar thing has been happening.
It started with me watching Tony Robbins on YouTube and now I can't seem to stop...
This combined with other factors, I feel as though I am learning about myself on a much deeper level than ever before.
And my epiphanies are back.
I had a thought the other day but was unable to find the time to really think it through, so yesterday I did exactly that.
With my hour to spare, I sat with my fruity beverage, pen and paper and went to town.
Writing things out really helps me to think more clearly.
I would switch between writing and being thoughtful while people watching.

Who am I?!
If you had told me a year, no, 4 weeks ago, that I would be working on a project so intensely that it filled my free time and provided me with personal growth, understanding and self care I would have laughed SO hard! If you had then said that the project is 'Me', I would have fallen off my chair, felt embarrassed, changed the subject and d e f i n i t e l y  1,000,000% not believed you.

Yesterday I chose to find the time in, what to me was an already busy day, to sit and work on myself. To be patient and accepting of my findings.
And oh boy how amazing it felt.

Here's to many, many more days like this

Oh! And happy August 1st to you!
- seriously? it's august already?? xD
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Sunday, 30 July 2017

Pinterest Picks #2

In similar fashion to my last Pinterest Picks post, I decided to take a look at what I had recently posted in my 'Words' board.
I always find so much inspiration on Pinterest, particularly text posts. The one's I repin resonate with me on some level.
It didn't take me long to choose the following post to share with you and tell you what I take away from it...
I think this is an important message to anyone. Especially those who are always running around taking care of everyone... and overlooking themselves.
Having recently started to adopt a mindset that is more open to nurturing myself, I feel that self-love is a crucial piece in your well being.
It isn't selfish to want a 'you day' or 'an hour to yourself' or to want to relax in a bubble bath for how ever long you want. It's so important that you meet your own needs, your relationship with yourself sets the standard for every other relationship in your life.
Cherish it and love yourself wholeheartedly 
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